Holding on...

I must say the pain is somehow more bearable than last time. I have learned to completely relax since my massage session, and it's just amazing how one conversation with a stranger can help you through sometimes.

My muscle pain has completely waned. I am feeling less tired but more short breathed. Can you say that? Mmmm... short bread. I've never dreamed as much of food as now EVER. Can't remember last time I tasted something that didn't feel like rubber, cement or dirt. Though I have a much much milder mucositis this time. It's probably a grade 1, compared to the grade 3 I had at the hospital last time. But my tongue and taste buds are f***ed! Sorry... I just don't feel like I'll be able to enjoy a meal until all my chemos are over and done with. Some say 3 to 6 weeks before it's all balanced out again. My tongue is so sore that even drinking water is an effort. It's really depressing... At least I know this soreness only lasts for 3 or 4 days. Afterwards it's only tastelessness. I read in an article that honey helps. I will try it out and tell you.

Okay, so as I'm feeling a little better today, I wanted to share another video with you. I thought I'd never find a good capture of Antony and the Johnsons' cover of "Crazy in Love" by Beyonce Knowles (for the original click HERE). His version gives it a completely different dimension. I saw him perform in Antwerp last year I think and it was probably one of the best gigs I ever went to. There was no orchestra like here though. He is simply amazing... he's elevated the song into something absolutely beautiful, compared to the original crappy one. Enjoy!