I feel awful today. The mood is low and I want to punch the table or hit the wall. I don't want to talk to anybody except my closest family & friends.
The sister of a friend of mine invited me for lunch today. She promised it would only be with her, my mum and I. But when my mum found a parking place and we walked towards her house, I had a gut feeling more people would be there. So I called my friend to ask her sis, and she said 5 more people were there. FIVE. To me that sounded like a million. I apologized through the phone and said I wasn't coming.
My mum was upset too. She struggles cause tactless people call her to ask her about me. Do they realize how hard it is for my mum? Also, the people calling aren't even my family. My aunt, who had breast cancer herself, isn't aware of my situation.
I am so angry. I know that deep inside people want to help, but why do they feel the need to call my mum to bombard her with questions about me?? Are they that insensitive?
Thank God I have plans for tonight... I have a friend who lives on the 23rd floor of a building. We are going to watch the sunset from her balcony. It's gonna be magic...
Sali, hello poulette.
RépondreSupprimerj'espère que ce message ne seraa pas trop intrusif, c'est la 1ere x que je blogge, faut que je trouve mes marques..sais pas si il y a moyen de faire un coucou plus discret, anyway, j'ai donné le livre que je t'avais promis à ton frère. Gros bisous, je pense beaucoup à toi. Bénédictz
ah, oui dis je voulais te dire: (j'ai chopé la touche "publier commentaire" trop vite, arnghaff!!)elle est superbe cette photo de toi, j'aime bcp la "different vibe" that I get from you on it, t'es trop style!!!! je t'embrasse (encore, ahah) Bénédicte
RépondreSupprimerSali, I wish you lots of strength for today's tests. I'll be thinking of you, as I have for most of the weekend. I hope your sunset yesterday was great. I'm sorry you had a tough day and I can understand that you felt frustrated with people contacting your mum. But maybe, it's not insensitivity that made them do it, but insecurity to contact you directly. I remember when I was first confronted with a person I knew who suffered from cancer, I was very insecure if I should ask the person directly how she feels. It ended in me not contacting her at all for a long time, which made me feel guilty. But I simply didn't know how to deal with it. Maybe that's the case with people who try to find out how you are through your mother. They want to know how you're doing but are afraid to ask directly. It's sad, that this puts so much stress on your mum. Take care, Silvia
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