Whatever you call them, they're such a bloody pain. Since having my surgery a month ago, I've started to have hot flushes... or flashes... same thing. They've appeared because my hormonal system has gone bonkers and has put me in an early (and hopefully temporary) menopause because of chemo. Soon I will have to take pills to stay in a menopause for about 2 years, but I haven't started it yet. So, I'm ahead of it for now.
It started slowly with one hot flush a day, then another one at night. Now I get about 6 or 7 hot flushes a night and about 2 or 3 a day. During the day it's still OK, but at night it's almost unbearable.
I used to think, whatever, it's nothing. My upper body gets really hot for about 30sec to 1min, and it's over. But lately, it has made me SO angry. I can't describe it. I'm so mad at my body for not coming out of it before starting the hormonal treatment which will eventually put me in an artificial menopause. It's also a reminder that for now, I won't be able to have any babies. For now, Sali... For now!! I have to convince myself every day that it's temporary! But what if I stay in it... what if my body can't get out of it? I don't know what I'd do... I don't wanna think about it! And that's when I get another hot flush to remind me. Thanks...
Hello Sali,
RépondreSupprimerc'est fait une éternité que je ne t'ai pas fait un coucou, excuse moi. Je demande de tes nouvelles à dani, of course mais comme c'est parfois facile de se laisser emporter par sa petite vie et d'oublier de s'ouvrir aux autres. Je lisais tes derniers commentaires et je suis sur le cul de ta force, de cette façon dont tu te reconstruis chaque jour! Je voudrais bien te voir, mais je ne sais pas si tu serais disponible pour une copine, disons, plus périphérique que tes proches ;), je vais à Bruxelles au Xmas dinner ce samedi et je dors chez Dani, on pourrait peut-être se voir le dimanche? Je vais demander à Dani qu'elle te contacte. Je te fais de gros bisous, Béné