Complaining NOT allowed!

So I've had 2 radiation sessions so far, and it's going pretty well. I'm so glad I got a car now that it's freezing. I can't imagine myself having to wait for the bus everyday in such cold weather. On the other hand, if it gets slippery, I might just go ahead and use public transport... cause I'm not sure I'll feel safe in my own hands.

My birthday party was a total fiasco. My friends were complaining that it was too cold, that they didn't feel well, etc. plus I was late to open the door for them cause I was still outside buying stuff, so they were a bit cross about it... anyway... they could at least have tried to get up and dance, to get warm! I was so disappointed I burst out crying in the kitchen. Thank God I had my closest friend with me... She boosted me and cheered me up. So I could go back pretending everything was fine. Whatever girls, you feel like shit on my birthday, well guess what, I've been feeling like shit for a long time. So let's not talk about the silly things in life and get over it! I guess I'll be thinking twice before doing something like that again. In my head I feel it's definitely the last time I want to go through all this. I had this stupid idea of using my birthday party as an excuse to celebrate what was really important: the end of my chemo... but I see that some people still don't get the seriousness of it all. They see me all happy and smiley, and they think 'oh, she's fine now, everything can go back to what it used to be'... But they're wrong! I don't think I can stand people who complain all the time. It makes me just... so tired... really. I don't have time for this, girls! FFS

Life is good. You need to celebrate it more, that's all.