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If somebody had seen me cry today, they would have thought "poor girl, what's wrong with her?" because I just couldn't stop, nor could I explain to anyone asking. All I had to say though was one word: joy. I cry out of joy. I think I cried out half of my body fluids today.

The wait to see Dr. D. was absolutely unbearable! I was already late for the appointment, so I ran to the place where I thought Dr. D. would be, but couldn't find him. So then I ran to another floor to find him, but couldn't find him. Then I (finally) asked and was told he was on the previous floor but not seeing anyone. Huh?? After explaining why I had to see him they said they'd call him. I was asked to go into a room and wait for him while a nurse would refresh my bandages. The nurse was a bit of a freak, cause she would really hurt me, then smile and say it was OK, pat me on the knee or shoulder (where it hurt!) and smile again. Weirdo! Anyway, once gone... here's me waiting to see Dr. Sweetheart topless for a good 15 minutes... or maybe it was just 2 but it seemed like forever. Nurses kept coming and going, smiling and greeting... me topless, smiling back, trying to hide what's left of me. Urgh, so embarrassing!

Then, two knocks on the door. At least that wasn't one of the nurses, but Dr. D himself. I must have looked really miserable when I saw him cause he didn't even say hello, just "everything OK?", "no, I'm really nervous...", "well, there's absolutely no reason to be"... I assure you that hadn't I been topless then, I would have jumped into his arms and cried out of relief, even used the situation to kiss him just out of gratitude for all he's done until now! But, sometimes your brain reacts quicker (THANK GOD!!!) and I just smiled and sighed. How awkward would it have been otherwise? The tears came much later... after the shock.

Long story short: the tumour is OUT for good. The 10mm border which needs to be healthy tissue is fine, and all of the 15 removed lymph nodes are healthy. I can finally breathe!!! I'm so freakishly happy that I look miserable. I think I'm still in shock though, cause I haven't been able to laugh out of happiness yet. Just nodding in a corner for now... Nodding and looking up to the sky and be thankful...