Not over, Mum

I saw sweetheart Dr. D. yesterday for my pre-surgery consultation. It was harder than I expected. Not only because because my mum was here and asked all these questions I didn't want to hear about yet, but also because it's only been a week since the chemo. I felt pretty light headed and just not awaken enough to realize everything that was said.

Basically, he asked me to choose again between a mastectomy and an excisional biopsy (lumpectomy). In the first case: boob is gone, but I will be able to reconstruct an new one in a year or two. In the second case: part of boob with tumour is gone and quickly reconstructed, which leaves me very unbalanced and I'll have to do radiotherapy on top to clear everything. It was hard to choose, cause when you know you will have to go through another bunch of side effects just to keep your breast... or just get rid of everything and recover, you don't think straight anymore.

I decided to go for the lumpectomy. Even if it means radiotherapy. I can't imagine losing a part of me right now. It's just too hard. And so be it if I end up unbalanced. More than half of the female population is anyway.

I'm still a bit in pain. Mainly stomach cramps and dry mouth, with the infamous leather-tongue. And of course no taste buds, except for the taste cement and sand. But I can at least look out for a couple of nice days to come.

The surgery is planned for the 6th of November, which is exactly in a fortnight. I will stay at the hospital for a week. And they will remove most of the glands from my armpit, which means I won't be able to move my arm at all for quite a bit. Then I guess it's immediately followed by radiotherapy. Checking here on the net it's usually done EVERY DAY for a month! OMG... There goes my wish of going back to work before the end of the year... I definitely need to know what is planned for me!

Anyway. I'm on the path to recovery, and that is the most important. Next week I'm off to London for 2 days with my cousin Karima. It's gonna be 2 days of shop til you drop, and good eats and having fun. I am so looking forward to it, even if I know I'll probably drop waaaaaay before her! Who cares?

My new musical love of the moment: Florence and the Machine...